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August 25, 2011

"Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith."

'You've got to find what you love,' Jobs says

This is a prepared text of the Commencement address delivered by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, on June 12, 2005.
I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.
The first story is about connecting the dots.
I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?
It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.
And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.
It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:
Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.
None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, it's likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.
Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.
My second story is about love and loss.
I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.
I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.
I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.
During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.
I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.
My third story is about death.
When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.
Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.
About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.
I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I'm fine now.
This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope it's the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:
No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.
Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.
When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960's, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.
Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: "Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.
Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.
Thank you all very much.

August 23, 2011

Tháng 8

"Tháng 8 mùa thu lá rơi vàng chưa nhỉ...."
Mẹ là ánh trăng thu.
Hôm nay là SN mẹ, cả 2 bố con đều ở xa. Hôm qua trêu mẹ bảo là, hình như chả năm nào người (bố béo) ở nhà, mẹ bảo: "thôi đừng nói nữa, tôi khóc oà lên bh".
Nhớ ngày này cách đây 8 năm, hồi đấy mình mới đi Mĩ, hồi đấy mới có cái trò gửi bài hát qua điện thoại miễn phí, mình đăng kí gửi bài "Mẹ Yêu" từ hồi mới thi đại học xong để gửi tặng sinh nhật mẹ, mình mới đi được mấy ngày, mẹ nhận bài hát qua điện thoại mà mẹ khóc. Ngày đấy mình mới đi đi cả nhà vắng như ma, bởi không có đứa huỳnh huỵch chạy cầu thang, không có đứa mà mẹ cứ thấy im im là y như rằng đang nghịch dại, không có tiếng radio ban đêm vang ra từ cái đài bên phòng mình, không có tiếng đồng hồ báo thức buổi sáng, lẫn ánh đèn đêm vào lúc 2h sáng, không có đứa buổi trưa phá quấy không cho mẹ ngủ.
Mẹ với mình thân nhau như 2 chị em, như 2 người bạn thân. Một mối quan hệ không phải ai cũng có được. Có lẽ tại bố béo hay đi vắng khi mình còn bé, đi đâu mẹ cũng thê la mình đi, rong ruổi trên con Dream III trên khắp nẻo đường góc phố.
Năm nay SN mẹ em lại không ở gần, mong mẹ sẽ mãi là ánh trăng mùa thu của em.

August 17, 2011

Tâm sự không của riêng ai

Không tên


Những con đường chật chội sẽ về đâu



August 15, 2011

So long summer

Time to focus.
I need to see a bigger picture that I don't have too much time to finish everything ( that i already started) before graduation. So i need to work hard, think less about traveling, and think more about finishing up these damn projects. Sometimes I cant help but put my mind into planing those trips though. (i seriously in need of professional helps). Why cant i just be rich enough so I don't have to work but still can afford to travel around the world, but again at the same time, it's not my personality to just enjoy the vacation without earning one.
I think now it's time to leave Australia and Vietnam behind, bring my mind back to the States. Time to get those high resolution spectra cracked up.
Teaching 2 graduate courses (Thermodynamic and Quantum) will be challenging for next semester and will be less time to focus on the project. Hopefully, I can manage my time well enough so I don't have work around the clock (this is something I'm skilled at).   
So long summer, I had a fabulous time as always.

August 6, 2011

Australia-Sydney

After, checked in at the hotel, realized that I only have a day and a half in Sydney. I wanted to plan myself well.
I was gonna go to Tangaroo Zoo, but it closed due to the installment of cable car until Aug25th. I still cant see no kangaroos, no koala bear.
I walked to Opera house. walked around sydney harbor for lunch. Went up to Sydney tower (highest building in Sydney) to take a look around sydney in 360*.
Walked around  Central sydney, with Victoria building, a lot of churches. Walked by Sydney hospital.
My impression of Sydney is: Like NYC, and I saw a lot of resembling of London.
The next morning, i took the bus to go to Wildlife zoo, where I saw a lot of koala bears, and a lot of Kangaroos. When I went back I took the ferry (intentionally to go to Daring Harbor, but I ended up took the wrong one). However I later walked to Daring harbor and walk back to hotel.
Took a 2nd ferry to go to manly beach and had dinner with Tim and his wife on Manly beach and took ferry back watch Sydney at night.
Next morning I woke up at 5am wanting to watch sun rise over Harbor bridge. It wasn't until 6h45 am that the sun was up, but with the beautiful view of sunrise over Sydney and Opera house, I ended my trip in Sydney, with impression that Sydney surprised me every second.
I flew back to the state Sat morning in Sydney and get back to the State Sat morning in the State.
Knowing that there is no more trip anytime soon, i feel a little bit sad. But I'm glad to sleep on my own bed tonight.
I think it's time to put thoughts into the next trip on X-mas. (if I ever have time off again).
Life is good 'till next time :-)

Australia trip-Melbourne

I had fantastic 2 days with my best friends in Melbourne. She and her husband picked me up at midnight at the airport. We came back to her place and we started talking about everything in my life, her life, her perspectives, my perspectives until 4am in the morning. I had to drag her out of bed the next morning, we had lunch with her husband, my friend from A3-Viet. in the city. We walked to harbor, hang out and chilled. That night, she tried raw salmon for the first time with my encouragements.
On the way back home, I shared on how i started reading on those love novel lately to keep myself believing in love. she said: How can you try to keep a romance side in you when you yourself don't believe in love. I was like wow, she never failed to understand me. She went on and on about how I plan so well on other things but relationships :)))...
Next day, with intention of seeing some kangaroos, and koala bears, we woke up early, took the bus to go to the Werribee Zoo. We saw, giraffes, hippos, Rhinos, but no kangaroos, so to cheer me up she pretend to be the kangaroo, and I pretend to be Rhino. It was so easy being with my friends.
We later on when back to the city because i had some coffee dates with some friends who lives in Melbourne, and came home and pack. On the way back, I shared with her my concerns on the job thing, about what was the plan and now the plan failed off track. She is going home for good in October. One more reason for me to go back home soon enough.
She took the train and the bus with me to the airport the next morning to drop me off. I made a promise that next time I will see her it will be my wedding day :)). (so I cant go back to Vietnam now before i find myself a husband to marry to). The more important promise is next time we will see each other wont be 7 years from now.
As my flight to Sydney departed, i realized that I had such amazing time with her. No matter how much time we were apart, she is and always will my best friend.

August 1, 2011

Australia trip-Port douglas-Brisbane

Day 3: Not much happening on day three since i was gonna gone to town in the afternoon to do some browsing around! However i spent all afternoon put myself back together.( it was sad day)
I came back after poster session! Talked to Lan Anh about everything around my life then when to bed
Day 4:
After all the talk in the morning we went to DanTree rain forest! I didnt appreciate the rain forest that much since you know i've seen better! In compare with Cuc Phuong national park, this is nothing! I didnt see any big scary animals or colorful trees like i hoped. All i saw was green trees, well to be honest i do come to apprecitate green now after living in arizona for too long. we only saw some turkeys, buterflies, and one big bird that i cant name. However do enjoin the nice walk, nice talk with young Romanian guy came from UC berkeley (abt his korean fiancee'). Later on i found out that he has quite characters.
That night Tim and i went over my slides, fixed here and there, and gave a lot and a lot of practice.
Day 5:
We only had 2 talks on wednesday in the morning and we all boarded to go out to the sailing cruise to go to the great barrier reef.
We only went out to Low Isles. I did try snorkeling, but it didnt work for me. I sank like a stone. I was never good in water :-((. At least, i've done what i promised to Nikki (tried snorkeling). I later went on those glass boats that they provided and looked at the corals, turtles, some fishes.
After the boat, i took a walk through the island (which took me literally 10 mins). But the view is really beautiful. I took some corals home (with Tim's helps), because i'm not supposed to do so :-s! But coral is so pretty, and it's from great barrier reef. So i cant help.
Day 6:
Rather long but very important day, Because there are presentations all day, and most it was the day that i have to present. I think i did pretty well in terms of delivery the info, the length of the materials, and at least nobody is sleeping.
Later on i got compliments from John Maier (who Tim said very rare on his compliments), Andrews ellis (i will have to check his name later) (chair of my session), and some other ppl told Tim that i did a good job. I think i made Tim proud.
In the evening, we went to crocodile farm for the banquet! I saw one is huge (5m crocodile) just imagine only me in the wild with him, guess who would win in that battle?
I did try some crocodile meat! To be honest i didnt like it that much. It tasted like chicken but a little bit more sour! I think i still prefer steak.
Day 7:
I woke up at 5:40am went to the beach hoping to catch some sunrise, however it was a cloudy day. So i missed out
It was rather very short day. We only attended the first session b/c Bob Field was giving the talk. Tim and I skiped the last session to went to town for Tim to get some cash, get the car, and for me to buy some stamps, sending my postcards, buying the fridge magnets for my fridge (it's kinda the hobby of me that every place i go traveling, i bought little magnet for the fridge)!
Just before we left, my ZrO2 paper on JPC got accepted. Im so glad. Just some minor corrections.
We checked out of the hotel, ha lunch and now currently on the road!
The town we r staying is Townsville.
Day 8:
We went to coffee place in townsville, then did a little hike up to castle hill in townvilles then back to driving.
We had a little picnic for lunch on a beach at a little town called Bowen. The park was nice and the beach was amazing.
On the drive we saw a lot of sugar canes and sugar mills.
Australia country side is very flat. It reminds me a little bit of everwhere i've been.
The weather is perfect! They seem complaining that is cold, but 25*C, i have nothing to say. Way much better than 47*C in Phoenix.
We will see how far we could go today.
Day 8:
We ended up staying at Sarina beach last night. After, asking at one hotel where there is no vacancy at, and one hotel is closed (for business) we stayed at a very weird bed and breakfast. The onwer has a huge dog, about half of my height.
The town is also very weird because they say it's high season, but we saw no tourist wondering around. There is only one take away restaurant and it's closed at 7:30pm on a saturday night. It seems like a ghost town to me:-s. We had a clear look at a southern sky last night as well, boys, this is a first time i had a clear look at a milky way. Appearently, the northern sky and the southern sky are so much different and the sky is limit at where we stand.
Now of to the road we go. We r trying to get as far as we cant today.
We stopped at Gladstone trying to get something for lunch. But we learned from that experience it's Sunday, everything is closed. Off the road we go again. We made reservations at Hervey bay. Only one more night until Melbourne.
Day 9:
we got a little walk at Hervey bay last night and i like the beach more than any place that I've been.
I got some more corals for Nikki. The weather is actually colder as we get down south. but i feel perfectly fine. After some coffee and little walk at hervey bay, we off to brisbane.
After checking in at the hotel in brisbane and some lunch. Got rest and Tim drove me to the airport to go to Melbourne in the evening. I finally got some internet at the airport and finally get to publish this