Do you hate love???

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."

By `Neil Gaiman.

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Show me the way to get the pain off my chest.
To keep my eyes dry...
To bring  back my smile...

How to kick somebody out when you're alreay let that person into deep...
pls tell me...

losing game

No one has a perfect life.
You gained something,
you lost something else...
And just like that, life goes on.
Sigh

There are a lot of things are a lot like love...
I'm hoping this is one of them, then it would be easier and faster to move on.
That I will smile again someday.

Things are in my mind

I dont know how long I can take it in. I felt like it's a waiting game. I have 2 options
1. If i failed on the exam, I would lose, my self, my dream, disappoint my family, and all other people who are around me. But I would have him.
2. If I passed on the exam. I would be back on myself, my dream, but i would lose him.

Yes, it bothers me. It's in my mind everyday when he kept telling me something like: He is going home by the end of this year, or i might end up alone, or I should find another guy, or I will end up with another guy.
It bothers me when he said he would not come to tempe to visit me again. And I'm like, so how things would work?...

I'm not afraid of loneliness, but I'm scared of knowing that it's not a stable relationship...
It bothers me. I dont want another guy. I dont wanna not knowing.

Actually, it hurts me. I dont want this. I want something stable. Someone treasures me just being me. Someone that I can actually lean on.

April 11th, 2010...

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